So last year- the once love of my life and definitely someone I thought I might settle down with had his first child. And obviously not with me. Although I pretty much despised him at that point from all the bullshit from groupie bitches at his games to all the traveling that left me home alone- I was still shocked and hurt by the news. Anyhoo- he always pursued me even when we I broke up asking me to move in with him and get married. I never did never accepted because I knew he just wanted me b/c he didn’t want anyone else to have me. So he has a kid with some German chick in Atlanta!!! When I found that news out…via EMAIL BREAK IN- cuz I am that geek bitch that will hack into your account faster than you can floss your teeth- I really was floored. It was like living the phrase “curiosity killed the cat.” That’s how I found that out. He prolly wouldn’t have said shit to me if I didn’t confront him on it because I was still getting the marriage proposals- but it was even more persistent so it was obvious he wasn’t trying to be with the chick. Or maybe he wanted to be with both of us. Anyways- I don’t do the baby mama thing. I don’t fuck with dudes with children. Not cuz I don’t love kids to death- with hopes of having an army of 4 myself- but I just feel like it’s too much extra shit that you have to deal with if the guy has a existing family. I come with no ties so should you. FUCK THAT! I mean I’ll make an exception for someone like…Vince Carter but otherwise I can’t deal. Maybe that’s me being selfish- but I think it’s me just being smart.

ROUND DOS
So my girl Mary calls me from Boston to give me the “back home” news. It seems as if my other EX (DUDE B)is having a baby too. Sheesh. Except this one I hear is challenging the mother with a DNA test? What type of bitches are these men dealing with? Challenging the mother? shittt. I’ll be god damned if a dude EVER questions me like that. Either she’s a ho or you’re a dead beat dad in the making. Anyway- although I didn’t love this dude anywhere near as much as I loved DUDE A, I still had love for DUDE B on some other shit. We were just really good friends.

So my question is- why does it hurt so much when your exes move on? None of them have gotten married yet which is a HUGE relief but the baby thing is BIG enough. I mean- I’m happy to be child free but when I think of “my men” having babies and I’m not the mother- there’s something altering about that. Can you relate? It just seems like the romance is truly and utterly over. Not saying that it ever was going to flourish again but the door really slams in your face when they make moves like that.